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Tag: grief

When Life Catches Up To You

Do you sometimes find yourself putting off being sad or feeling uncomfortable feelings until it’s a more convenient time? I have done this, but the truth is, it simply festers in other ways. For some it comes out as anger, frustration for others, perhaps…

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I haven’t talked to my Mom in 2 years

It’s 2 years today that my mom passed away. It seems crazy to me and often what comes to mind is that I haven’t talked to he in so long. Sometimes that’s a really lonely feeling because she’s the only person I would talk…

One Year

I’m pretty sure that when my sisters and brother read that title they will all get anxious and sad. I’ll do my best to make this uplifting. It’s been one year since my Mom passed away. In one way it seems like a lot…

Get behind me little one

Tonight was was in a yoga nidra class and during I had the image of myself as a young kid, maybe 5 or 6 years old. In the image the ‘big me’ hugged the little one tightly and said ‘I love you’. It just…

The new normal

I dreamed last night that my mother was alive. It was Christmas in the dream and all of my family was gathered together at a house. In the dream my father was seeing someone else. I asked where mom was and was told she…

Ashes to ashes

Yesterday we spread my Mom’s ashes in Herring Cove where she grew up, as was her wish. As they were going out on the tide we needed to be there at high tide. My brother had a couple of friends who took him out…

I did my hair today

Not big news, I know. Except that for the last several weeks I have done nothing but throw on some clothes and put my hair in a pony tail and head off to work. Feeling depressed saps your motivation to do the easiest of…

A Hypocrite No More!

In my last post I wrote about some struggles that I’ve been having. Today I had my first session with a counselor (thank you to everyone who made recommendations and who reached out – it means the world to me). During the session we…

Struggling

This morning I found myself wishing for the oblivion of being drunk. But without drinking. I’ve been sober going on 17 years, I have no intention of ever drinking again. But on occasion I want to escape my life. I know even when I…

Dreaming

I dreamt of my mom last night for the first time since she passed away in December. In the dream we were sitting in a porch somewhere surrounded by a canopy of trees. She was holding a baby and another young child sat beside…